The first cut I saw was at the cast and crew screening, and it was ungraded and it didn't have the soundtrack and I thought it was great.
But when I saw the finished thing, with the soundtrack, it blew me away.
When I first saw it, I was looking at my performance and wondering if I'd let myself down, if I was good enough, but I came away thinking “I'm not embarrassed by that, that's okay.”
I know it sounds selfish, but then I can look people in the eye afterwards. And if they go “It's a shit film.” I can say “But I was okay in it, wasn't I?”
I loved the film, even in its rough form. But we believed in it from the start, we knew it was a good film.
We didn't know it would be received to this amount of acclaim, obviously. But the time that we had together was so special that even if everyone fucking hating it, we'd have come away with a special moment in our lives.
I find the first couple of times viewing my big face really not a pleasurable experience. I'm not watching my performance, I'm going “Look at that big fucking moon head.”
But once I was over that, you've got to be really proud of it as a bit of work, it's trying to do more than what most films are, and it's throwing questions and ideas that are big and interesting and challenging for the audience.
And I've done a lot of work that isn't necessarily that, so I'm just really excited to be a part of it.
And something my father worked on as well, he gaffered the film. The film's so much about family, so it was brilliant and fortuitous to have him there. So I had my dad there to talk to about when I was Harry's age, and the close relationship I had with my dad as a kid, and that fed into it. It was amazing.
This film is one of the greatest experiences of my acting career. Those three weeks we had together in Yorkshire was just the best. Just the best feeling.